This is a good feeling. I haven’t written anything on here since August. But it feels good to be back and I am back to explain my prolonged hiatus.
I have taken breaks before due to writers bloc or just not being able to find any inspiration. But the last 6 months of 2019 was probably the worst in my life. Medically, personally, and professionally. I have never been more tested in my own strength.
Friends, although now they’re more like acquaintances, I used to party with suddenly turned away from me. Started talking about how I had let go of myself or why I grew out my beard or why I looked the way I did. Not once did anyone ask me personally if I was okay, rather they gossiped with each other. Having a laugh at my expense while I was going through the hardest times of my life. Luckily, its not hard to see through weak people like them, it just makes me stronger.
The truth is I had let go of myself. I keep myself to certain standard when it comes to appearance. I actually take pride in it. All that went out the window when I was going though what I was going through. I just truly let go because it didn’t feel like it mattered anymore.
I couldn’t even talk to the one person I wanted to the most. The one person who’s advice would probably have pulled me out of the hole I dug myself. But thats a story for another time.
I’m just here to tell you that I am back. I have taken care of the issues I was having and I feel just as good. I came out of the darkness a better person, and with a better judge of character. I have learned that you can drink and dance together with people and the same people will run their mouth about you the first chance they get.
Anyway bygones and whatnot. I don’t live in the past. But best believe I will not fall for it again. I thank the people who helped me out of the hole, you guys are the real deal and the only ones who actually gave an ounce of care in the World if I was okay or not. Looking forward to expressing myself even more in the near future.
“A boomerang returns back to the person who throws it.But first, while moving in a circle, it hits its target.So does gossip.”